The Outgoing Introvert
:: An Oxymoronic Existence ::

Hi, may I say a warm welcome to my web site - oh dear, it appears I do have a private life that most people know nothing about, I guess that makes me a typical Gemini i.e. dual natured. But anyway, I will be your guide on a journey of self-discovery with my primary aim to help you become better at building rapports which is beneficial for all types of interpersonal relationships such as friendship, marriage, family life and especially business.

Please kindly note that although you may not agree with everything I say, I do have a right to voice my opinions and besides, I am very pro-free-speech.

There is a fine line between genius and insanity so listen now to find out:

Hopefully you are not cracking up with laughter at this point so when you compose yourself and decide later that you found this web site useful I would appreciate any feedback or questions you may have, just click onto my e-mail or add me to MSN Messenger for some instant online messaging. Please feel free to refer someone else that you'd think would find this site edutainingly worthwhile.

The audio logs on this site provide an educating and entertaining insight into my life and more importantly, it's a wonderful example of interpersonal relationships. Although people can be placed in a box using typology I believe that it is actually the first step in getting out of a magically accurate box to achieve true inner balance, understanding and peace towards your fellow human and more importantly, yourself! The ultimate rapports can be had in relations of duality as you will discover later on.

A little bit about me...After my ups and downs of childhood I survived! Later I realised my life had finally begun age 21 when I left the educational establishments and was free to begin thinking for myself. Now it's time to get DEEP...

I have come to realise that I have an invaluable objective view of the world which helps me in my various analyst roles. With a little patience and understanding I believe that any relationship can work although, granted, some are more favourable then others. Everyone is unique and I am no exception. I can confirm that I have most if not all the classic symptoms of a person associated with the INTJ personality type which accounts for around 1-2% of the general population which is arguably the rarest of the sociotypes. I studied the data on my supposed sociotype and compiled my own personalised typology.

Please consider that typologies are relative and not absolute, I and no one else is bound by their inborn type albeit yes, we all have specific unique strengths to develop and weaknesses to work with - no two persons are truly identical even amongst identical relations. Self discovery is more about understanding one's self and limitations in order to make positive changes in your life.

I have used my study of psychological typologies to exponentially nurture my "people skills" since around September 2004. I now believe I have reached a new level of self-esteem and confidence, the world truly feels like my oyster (finally!) i.e. no where and everywhere is my personal office or playground ripe for building rapports with new clients.

Through some extensive self-discovery and rapport building with others I found that over time it has became increasingly easier to develop my communication skills and self-esteem with repeat practice. Within the space of six months, I had gone from a relatively depressed and lethargic state to a creative genius state working towards a most prospective future. The proof is in the pudding as they say if we compare my first day at work ID photo with say my confident relaxed pose opposite or just ask friends for their opinion of my development. One thing I have learnt though is the value of networking, that is, making contacts, learning from each other and feeling good in oneself just from interacting socially. Hold on a second, am I now calling myself a "sociable introvert", isn't that another oxymoron? probably yes, if you are an extravert who doesn't comprehend introverts but that's beside the point as I realised that to truly be happy in life, one must absolutely find inner balance and achieve an oxymoronic existence! I cannot stand the negative-excuse-for-everything-attitude, "but it's the way I am" e.g. a relaxed go-with-the-flow spontaneous person who doesn't know the value of using a diary/planner. Unless you become truly balanced and become say a spontaneous-planner, you'll never be a rounded person. Note the hyphen in the oxymoron which creates the oxymoronic hybrid word that should be interpreted from scratch i.e. forget everything you know about each word when separate and only consider the meaning of the new hybrid word. For example, a spontaneous-planner in my opinion is someone who is able to get 'good stress', plan to get something done but will also know when to relax and go with the flow thus they don't get 'bad stress'.

I have a simple policy when it comes to work, either i'm doing a job I like or i'll remain indefinitely unemployed. Thankfully, my current job is the most tolerable yet, notice my choice of words as i'm clearly trying to suggest that a job is not something to be enjoyed no matter how much you think you enjoy it. The simple reason being that there are many other things in life I enjoy more like continual development of this web site or even the thought of finishing my job for the day especially when i've felt the burden that it is. As a master of emotions I do not usually show my true disgust with work and can resort to showing a degree of surface conformism to others that yes, just maybe, i'm enjoying things when the reality is quite different as you've just discovered.

I'm only 22 which is beside the point but what i'm really looking for is a WAY OUT from the Rat Race. As far I am aware, the Rat Race is a paradigm that no matter how hard I work I will never escape from. I could say it's like an uphill struggle with the imminent threat of a landslide. What I really need is a new paradigm that I might call the "financial marathon" where everyone receives a medal no matter how long they take to cross the finish line thus everybody wins like true equal opportunities. I know in practice from experience that relationships are EVERYTHING. I use my R.A.P.P.O.R.T. strategy (read more in depth below) to help with rapport building.

In the Rat Race, you are reprimanded for being your own boss because being a rat is perceived as normal in this insane world of ours. As a freethinker, I absolutely cannot stand the idea of being owned by someone, I was born free and free I shall remain even when others think they've succeeded in being the boss of me but really, I just keep quiet at key moments to avoid conflict, so they can have their frivolous satisfaction and let them remain content believing "it's-good-to-be-king!".

Please don't naively think that your development is indirectly taken care of solely by going through life willy nilly, we need to ACT in order to direct your personal development .

Directed Action = Good Progressive Development
:: focused on a new paradigm that yields deliberate results ::

Misdirected Inaction = Frivolous Stagnated Development
:: oblivious to an old paradigm that only yields casual results ::

If that didn't provoke a thought then try reading these most excellent quotes found in cyberspace:

“Problems cannot be solved by the same level of thinking that created them”.
Albert Einstein

“Action is a great restorer and builder of confidence. Inaction is not only the result, but the cause, of fear. Perhaps the action you take will be successful; perhaps different action or adjustments will have to follow. But any action is better than no action at all.”
Norman Vincent Peale

Okay, thanks for reading this far...let's take a breather because now we get into the core of my research on human relationships. This is REALLY DEEP stuff but surprisingly simple to understand...

I had a revelation one night and decided that the key (at least, in my highly individualised understanding) to human relations is RAPPORT, that is, Reasonable-Anti-Prejudice-for-Purposeful-Objective-Rational-Thinking. However, from the moment we are born I would say we are subjected to a cultural prejudice and without enough education or interaction we become fearful of others as a nurtured defence to unknowns outside our own cultural bubble. This is of course until fear that has kept us strangers for so long has been overcome and then ever lasting rapports are built.

For successful first-contact meetings with people we need more RAPPORT and less PSF, that is, Prejudiced-Subjective-Feelings. Thus...

LESS PSF :: MORE RAPPORT

We remain strangers to those who could be our friends when we are overcome with PSF but we absolutely must find RAPPORT to make successful first-contact without fear. After this hurdle, human nature takes care of the rest and rapports should build nicely.

RAPPORT opens up universal relationships :: PSF restricts you to sectarian relationships

When one then realises that diversity is a strength and not a weakness the mind is opened up to far more possibilities e.g. you may be willing to experience different cultures to enrich your own.

No one said that relationships were easy and whether they are interpersonal or international, they all have to be actively maintained otherwise they will surely crumble.

After experiencing the power of duality relations no less than 3 times and observing others that I have identified, I can confidently conclude that they really are the best of the best relation a person can have. I have a theory that those of us who never experience duality ever are prone to developing self-defeating habits and mental blocks to life in general. It is only in a duality relation that in my opinion, you can "awaken the giant within" like the way a caterpillar morphs into a beautiful butterfly or for the sci-fi fans out there it's like Neo from the Matrix being unplugged and walking around society as a true objective individual i.e. I believe that duality relations allow each person to branch out of their inborn type and achieve inner balance and of course peace. This probably explains why losing your dual can be very heart and mind breaking similar to the death of a loved one or someone you couldn't live without and I should know, because yes, I have experienced that too.

The sad truth that i've noticed is that many people out there have never experienced duality due to the way society has screwed with most of us thus remaining 'societal zombies' to be exploited. This in turn creates a subculture of what I will simply call 'unloved people living lives of quiet desperation', those who've never felt any kind of understanding and tolerance towards their fellow human regardless of race, sex, colour or creed and lack a creative purpose in life. This subculture would also be the biggest threat to the harmony of duality that we could argue is most akin to 'true love', or 'true friendship' for those of the same sex. Remember, it is not true love or friendship if it can be explained. It is how you feel about someone although it is then worth thinking about this amazing theory that is strangely accurate.

As a freethinker I live a constant battle between control and freedom within mainstream society. Since I am FREE-TO-THINK what I like without becoming too assimilated into mainstream culture I have spent a mostly sheltered private life accommodating other people and their cultures. This in no way implies that I am prejudice, far from it, in fact I am an extremely tolerant person and driven to learn about other cultures due to my peacekeeping observing nature. As an analogy, I could say that I live my life from the "crow's nest" keeping a sharp eye on the micro and macro world of possibilities.

Commercial Work 2004-2005

I'm currently working for MultiBadge Ltd, provider of visitor management solutions to offices, theatres and even prisons to name but a few with a growing client base. I am actively involved with the internet marketing as a sideline to my main responsibilities as senior IT consultant.

Oh and to show how optimistic I am about the future, here's my official resignation letter to be handed in Xmas 2005 which is the opimisitc date i've set as the next milestone in my personal success and development.

University Projects 2000-2003

I believe that most people in society have lost sight of what a degree means. It is quite common to attain your credential purely as a means to get that cushy "middle-class" job that after 10yrs or so you'll probably regret you ever started unless you was born to be assimilated by the borg of course. What ever happened to the realisation that University was simply the end of the beginning to your life i.e. "the world is your oyster" and you can achieve whatever you want either by making a positive difference in society through a corporation or independently through continued research and study. In reality though, the realisation that you are overqualified in an overcrowded market brings about more depression and degeneracy. In this market, it is not what you know but who know's what you are capable of and whether you are then willing to accept jobs that are few and far between.

• Introduction to Web Design with HTML
• Introduction to 3D Character Animation with Alias Maya

• Thesis on Constructivism - A Philosophy of Learning
• Thesis on Global Culture - A Social Science Study

• An Interactive Photoshop Tutorial based on Learning Theories
• Hypermedia Principles, Design & Implementation with Director
• Online Production - Professional Design with Photoshop & Dreamweaver

• Final Project - An Interactive Physics Directory created with Flash
• Final Thesis - "Investigating the Decline of Student Takeup In Physics And
  How Multimedia Can Be Used To Re-Engage Students"

Personal Stuff 1982-2082+

So what have we here.. a dreamboard that I've created to show a collage of thoughts that are relevant to my life. We also have some external links related to my character which explains plenty about my character, in theory of course. I also include some FREE online profiles which have brought me limited success with meeting new people thus I would not recommend it since on the net I find that the trustworthy amongst us with honest intentions are overshadowed by the untrustworthy with perverse intentions, quite a shame really but that's life i guess. I can't comment on paid online dating services since I am not willing to have my interpersonal relationships capitalised upon!

• Ambitious Abstraction - Dreamboard

• Astrological Sign - Profile of a Gemini
• Myers-Briggs - INTJ :: The Scientist :: The Mastermind
• Keirsey - Rationals :: The Portrait of the Mastermind Rational
• Socionics - Logical-Intuitive Intratim :: The Analyst :: Intertype Relations
• Enneagram - Type 5: The Observer (Thinker)

• Online Profiles - MSN Directory :: Faceparty :: Socionics Dating

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WARNING:
MAY CONTAIN STRONG LANGUAGE AND OFFEND NON-FREETHINKERS!

Confessions of a Gemini

Length ~27mins

Clash of the Titans

Length ~12mins

Web of Friendship

Length ~8mins

Inspired Free Thoughts

Length ~30mins

Battle of the Rationals

Length ~25mins

New Years Day 2005 Follow Up

Length ~23mins

New Years Eve 2004 eXperience

Length ~7mins

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My Design Notes

This site is a working prototype which will eventually be replaced by an interactive open source portal system.

A static HTML page is not adequate enough for the amount of information I want catalogued now and in the future. At the moment, it's an organised-mess (another oxymoron) of good stuff i want properly indexed.

New site will be built using Mambo open portal content management system thingy whingy.